A Note To My Fifty Year Old Self..

Dear Me,

You may find it preposterous to get a letter from your middle-aged self, dating ten to twelve years back. But trust me, if you have made it till your fiftieth, and if you read this, you will be grateful. I only wish that I had this idea a decade ago! 

First things first, when you are at your fiftieth year of life, you will find yourself in a dilemma. You aren't exactly old, you definitely won't be young. But the wishes and aspirations will be that of a girl! My advice here? Listen to your heart! It wouldn't have aged with you. Unless you keep shutting it out, in which case, it will learn to stay quite. The whispers will stop and you will suddenly wonder what is wrong with your life! So, listen to your heart!

Contrary to what everyone says, the evening of your life is exactly not a bad time! All good parties start in the evening, remember? So let the party of your life begin at your fiftieth year. Care to dress well. Wear what you like. Splurge on yourself. Prepare a bucket list, but not when you are about to kick the bucket. Prepare it when you don't need it! Remember the tour of Europe that you so badly wished to take! Nothing's stopping you now! Go for it! The cruise? You wished to go on a cruise at least once in your lifetime. This is it! 

Do not unnecessarily interfere in your boy's life. Be there for him of course, but learn to not to worry about him anymore. He is a teenager, for God's sake! Be his friend, and like all good friends do, give him his space! Allow him to choose his own path, his own way. You have taught him to listen to his consciousness. Now he will carve his own road ahead! Be there beside him, silently watchful, but do not hinder his journey with any misguided directions!

The evening time is also a time for quiet reflection of our self. Allow room for spirituality in your life. The questions will confront you for sure, about what lies ahead. If you want answers, embrace spirituality! You have aged, but the books, the most loyal of your friends, have not! Have a regular date with them. Probe into them, look for deeper meaning, ask for answers. Prepare yourself for the next great adventure that lies ahead of you! 

If your friends of the past years are still with you, then you have had a meaningful life. Keep these friends close to your heart, the ones who made it till your fiftieth year, who stood by you in all the ups and downs of your life, and who made your life better with their presence and support. Look after each other, you and your friends! 

But most of all, learn to have fun. There is no point in living, if you can't feel alive. Let go of all your regrets. By this time, you have done all you could. Now you just need to live it out. 

The grand party of your life has started. Enjoy!